I've been blogging since March, 2006, and in those nearly fifteen years, my blog direction has changed many times. When I hit the "publish" button for the first time, I was a homeschooling mom, yearning for more children, either through my own body or through the beauty of adoption. My blog name matched that season of life---Heart for Home and Orphans. As the door on that season of my life closed, my blog evolved into something different, and it has continued to do so many times in the past several years.
And now, I'm feeling like my blog direction is to change once more. While Clothed with Joy definitely reflects what the Lord has done in my life, every time I seek Him about what he would have me write about, my long battle with infertility is what is put on my heart.
Infertility defines my Christian life. It has consumed me since 1993, and even though God has given me peace about it, I still struggle with it on a regular basis.
While many bloggers do well writing about anything and everything, I do better with a theme. Home, family, and hospitality have been my go-to subjects for awhile now; although I continue to be passionate about those things, the Lord has put on my heart that the heartbreak of infertility is what he has most gifted me to write about.
In fact, several years ago, He put the title Smiling Through the Tears on my heart. I thought maybe I would write a book and give it that title, but, alas, I'm feeling more certain that it is the name of the blog I have been called to write.
So, although "He has removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy," this blog is going to be called Smiling Through the Tears. My writings will be mostly about the lessons I have gleaned through walking the agonizing road of infertility; even more, I will write about learning to love God even when I don't like His answer.
I hope you will join me on my journey, which will begin in early November, after I return from a trip to visit my parents. I will be offline until then.